No matter what I seem to do. I will never be good enough for my parents. There’s always something more they want out of me. I am trying. I really am! I have done so many things to impress them, but I feel such a disconnect. They judge each other and they judge me and my sister so quickly and swiftly. They assume when we don’t want to help them with something, we’re being selfish. I’m drained. I have no constant source of output for my built up emotions. There is so much pain in the world today. I sound depressing right now, yes. But it’s how i deal with my feelings in this moment.
All this crap I’m going through. It can be a tough nub when all I can think about is the sharp pains in my stomach, which scares me that I’m pregnant. But I can’t be because I myself have stuck to being a virgin. I always have had this strange fear of getting pregnant even though I’ve never had sex. I’m afraid I’m going to be the “chosen one” again, like Mary. But anyway, the sharp pains have ranged from below my sternum and above my naval. No idea what’s going on , but I’m hoping it’s just the stress of finals. I need someone to talk to about this whole shindig. And I know only one person who I can truly enjoy a good bodily function/sex talk with. :) haha. You know who you are.
When situations get tough, I hope you dance. When you’re staring at the wall, crying, I hope you remember that you are more than the crap that people say or the negative shit you think about yourself. I hope you realize that when all your foundations seem to crash and fall apart, you need to search for the best and strongest foundation instead. Allow yourself to be inspired. Let go of the metaphorical shards of glass you are squeezing in your hands. You weren’t meant to bring grief and sadness in the world. You are meant to spread love and joy into the world! Cling to hope, forgive each other, love. It’s not as hard as you think.
Please go see Cronicle!! The actors are AMAZING. The plot keeps building and building so intensely. It is INVIGORATING. I was hyperventilating at moments. The graphics were very well done. It entraps you in the story. I felt like jumping into the screen and stopping the madness!
Lana Del Ray, “Born to Die”- I luh me some Sistine Chapel!; it was weird; lots of making out; (no wonder she likes it!) haha; and gross! She died!
Ed Sheeran, “Lego House”- LOL <3!!!!
Mumford and Sons, “Timshel”- so nice and so calmmm
“The Cave”- one word: BANJO!!!! (Hells to the yeah)
Bon Iver, “Re: Stacks”- very calm; I was very at peace with this song
“Calgary”- it was awesome, artsy and dreamy, but then a BEAR?!! LOL
“Skinney Love”- okay, yes I have heard this. “my my my, my my my my my”; poor guy…. :/
Fleet Foxes, “Battery Kinzie”- the main singer has a very interesting voice! :D the song was chill and motivating :)
The Ruse, “Beautiful Is Gone”- me no likey
Florence and the Machine, “If Only For a Night”- LOOOOVVVVVEEEE her voice!!!!; woman power!
The National, “Say Anything”- I couldn’t find it….. :S
One Direction, “What Makes You Beautiful”- YUMMMMMMMY; I want to lick that spike-haired kid with dark hair and earrings;
Phantogram, “Mouthful of Diamonds”- (“and a pocket full of secrets”); the girl reminds me of a deer….; the dude was so creepy; and he dug a grave….whut???
Rogue Wave, “Lake Michigan”- love the clapping; the beginning reminded me of a Beatles music vid; SPRINKLERS!!!!!! EPIC WIN, it made me like the video 10x more :)))
Throw Me the Statue, “Lolita” (a.k.a. “your JAM”) haha; the tinkering bells is cute; I had to watch the video twice in order to process it; I liked it but I still don’t get the underlying message… :S
Two Door Cinema Club, “Something Good Can Work”- blondie boy needs a haircut!; it was simple and cute :)
Kate Nash, “Pumpkin Soup”- she is adorable! and the boy is too! too bad she won’t marry him :( poor hot guy; I love her voice, the style and the set; creepy cats tho; p.s. why is it called “pumpkin soup”??
Danyew, “Wake Up”- so what I got from it was that he was encouraging a girl to break up with her boyfriend so she can wake up and see what she’s missing (a.k.a him?) I’m not sure if it was directed towards dating him or not; he has a lovely voice; I really liked this song :)
Pheonix, “Liztomania”- GAHHHHH; I love Phoenix; I love their song “1901”; their sound is so original; :) where are these boys from? Britain?
Alpha Rev, “New Morning”- do I hear an accordian??? haha; Oh my gosh, I want Josh to sing this to me <3 this song is so cute <3 so meaningful
Lily Allen, “Who’d Have Known”- she’s soo pretty; LOL she loves Elton John! XD; I like this version better than the remix version with T-Pain;
“Alfie”-LOLLLLL Okay I love Lily; she’s so funny; I love the cartoony cheery theme all while the puppet is flipping her off and mooning her and she’s “politely” cussing in her adorable British accent
People get a bit worked up when it comes to talking politics. Sheesh people. SHUT UP.
